How could this be... ...

The pressure's building up
I feel like givin' up
How *** I am for my first relationship
Well everything has changed
It'll never be the same
Nobody know me
And I feel so ashamed
It's no diffrent
Everyday it's just the same thing

Now it's been months
So many different shows
Head spinnin' feelin' like it's gonna expolde
And I just wanna know
If anybady out there's feelin' like me
I'm loosin' my mind
And I can't believe
I let this get the best of me
And now I gotta let ya' know

One's got me insane
Cause I can't stand the rain
It's hitting my window pane
A little to much
And now I gotta let ya know
One's got my face frown
Aye
Cause I can't stand the sound
Of the thunder that's crashing down
Upon my house
Now I gotta let ya' know

My pocket i my head is fatter now
Look in the mirror my reflecton looks diferent now
Why do i feel this way
Should I be happy ? ? ?
Should I just ignore ? ? ?
Enerything I've been given
Please help me Lord
It's all over
But I can't escape the rain